mampukah aku??

......persoalannya sampai bila mampu aku btahan mampukah aku btahan nampak ketarakah dilema di wajahku luarnya tenang tapi Tuhan saja yang tau.....

it has been 3 years but i still hide it from public
bkn ak xnak ckp,tp jiwa ak kata:
"keep it as secret!"
bila ak cuba lawan, ia seolah kata:
"bodoss..ko nk raih simpati ker?"

gosh...i'm sorry..
really sorry 4 lying u all
i really wanna say da truth, but i cant..

tp,kalu ak ckp gak 1 ari nanti,mampukah korang trima??
atau,nati org akn ckp blakang plak:
"dunt eva trust zazie..she's a great liar!"

ya Allah,im really sori..
ak xmampu truskan pmbohongan ni,
tp ak xmampu ckp yg sebetulnya!

kpd yg da tau:ak sbenrnya xnak ckp pon ngan korang..tp korang da 'terr'tahu dgn scara kebetulan.what i wanna say is,'jz keep it as a secret.dunt eva try 2 tell anyone bout diz..let me tell em by myself...someday..
kpd yg xtau:sori,ak mmg sngaje xbg tau..kalu korang tau pom ape pekdahnye?